Today marks twenty weeks of my pregnancy with Hudson’s little sister. I can’t believe I’m halfway to two under two (15 months, to be exact)!
The pace this round is lightyears faster than with Hudson — which is a blessing and a curse, considering how much we need to do in our home and lives to make room for another human. My body is growing faster, and time is moving faster, so much so that I’m losing track of it!
The line, “the only constant is change,” couldn’t be more representative of our lives right now.
It’s funny how we’re naturally marking time these days by Hudson’s milestones and messy, adorable meals rather than the usual moments. A Friday like today rolls around, and the idea of a “weekend” no longer correlates with a natural feeling of a pause or a release — but that’s okay, because I love that each day feels full in its own way. I am so enamored with the time I’m able to spend with Hudson and Alex — it’s only a few hours each day, but they are so precious. It’s funny to think that, last night, we could have asked our babysitter to arrive 30 minutes earlier to give us an early dinner date before a fundraiser we attended — but both of us, without question, wanted to stay home and do Hudson’s dinner and bath routine together instead. I ate buttered noodles and laughed while Hudson scarfed down the remaining tofu in our fridge. I’m almost slightly scared we’re exiting this one-child stage so quickly and will soon have our hands doubly occupied and stretched—with a newborn and a newly mobile one. So, since our routine will change pretty drastically in five months, I’m soaking up this sweet spot with one almost-one-year-old boy.
As a whole, my mind is so ADD these days, jumping from list to list and project to project. From Hudson’s first birthday to the nursery’s new wallpaper to Hudson’s new room layout — to closet clean-outs and more blog content than ever before — it’s been a lot. I’m tired, but rather than feeling drained or “on empty,” I’m feeling so filled that it’s explosive at times! How do I lessen the volume? I’m unsure at this point, but I take every decision or completed “to-do” as a little victory.
I know the second half of the pregnancy will be harder, a lot of heavier (ha), and stressful. But I’m choosing at this moment to look at the glass half full rather than half empty. There is so much ahead and so much to embrace in the process. Thanks for being here on this journey with me and our growing family.
